A Season of the Unexpected

If you had told me a year before my wedding day that I would be getting married the following August, I would have laughed at you. Still, here I am, 6 months into a marriage and now expecting a little bun. Somehow, despite its outer, rushed appearance, it all feels natural. The timing of everything just feels right.

I have to say, I only found out yesterday and the emotions were overwhelming. Mixture of complete bewilderment, fear, excitement, joy, anticipation along with lots and lots of processing. All the new scenarios we will face, the responses to the news, obstacles, as well as everything we will need to organize in the process!

If i were to think about it, it would have been the moment I told my husband and he affirmed his commitment and longevity regardless of the circumstances, with a hint of a smile of excitement; it was that moment that I knew it was right.

My husband and I were close enough within our one year of dating/engagement that it feels as if we are living out our second year of marriage now. What a beautiful time it has been. Living in Australia these last two years helps with the "get-out-do-something-before-you-have-kids" as well. All of it leaves us feeling, although surprised, ready.

When I say ready, that doesn't mean we feel like we have enough finances, we have a house, or that we are fully prepared. On the contrary. From an objective perspective, the timing couldn't be worst. We have sold almost everything we have, we are moving countries and will be living with my parents until we can find work, a car, and a home. Wow. When you put it that way, what are we going to do?!

Still, there is an odd sort of peace around it all. It was meant to be. That being said, we will have a community of friends and family surrounding and supporting us. When the stress creeps up, my favorite encouragement is looking at all those first-time mothers who have gone before me. They always told us in college, don't be afraid of small beginnings. The number of people I have seen rise out of seemingly impossible situations and do amazing things is endless.

So, here's to small beginnings. It may seem daunting now but we are ready to take on this massive change in life with optimism and excitement. We are ready to see how it will change us and challenge us for the better. We are most definitely excited to welcome a new little Ren into the world and as part of the family!