Mindblowing

I cannot even believe I leave next Thursday. As of 8:10pm on July 8th, I'll be leaving the states from Miami for a very long time. There are no thoughts in my head about it except that packing has been an even bigger pain than when I went to the Bahamas.

Other than that, that's pretty much all that's going on. I'm in this strange limbo right now where nothing can happen because I'm leaving. Just working, packing, starting to say goodbyes to certain people... I'm excited but my excitement has had to be put on hold so I can focus on everything else I need to do and get done. Work has been a little more stressful than usual, but that's probably because I have so much going on. It's still fun, it just takes a little bit more effort sometimes.

I'm also finding a bunch of unfinished paintings that I'm disapointed to be leaving behind... reminds me that there's so much more I wanted to do... I'm dropping it all to go in a direction I can't even fully see, but God has me by the hand and He's leading me. What a mind-blowing concept. New land, new culture, new environment, new life... no ties, no history... starting completely over and on my own... following only the slightest drift of His breath that takes me the way He wants me to go; and yet, I trust Him. Mind-blowing.